Open houses suck......

Yoz, loyal readers, i'm back. Unfortunately, this post would be negatively charged. The reason being, like the title suggest, Open houses for polys suck. On Hari Raya Haji, i've finally put some initiative to get WS a gift(a teddy called sugar), spent or rather wasted the whole night at my cousin's place. As a result of lack of sleep, i got up in the morning(7.50am) to meet my friends at Bedok before heading to Nanyang Poly. The train journey took us 1 hour 5 minutes but like the saying goes(or did i just make this up?): Time passes quickly in the company of friends. After alighting, most of us realised that those who were not in JCs are paying adult fare(i guess being adults have some disadvantages). How to make this more interesting ? well, i gave the gift to WS, without a card though. i do have one but its kinda.....mus_ _. Anyways, we didn't make eyecontact whatsoever. The only reason i was going there was to give her the present. Nanyang Poly was a maze with very miscalculating lifts(it can't carry its specified weight capacity). Oh, and i made a complete fool of myself thanks to Ali. Before leaving for Ngee Ann poly, some of us decided to go find some stuff from Naruto, which wasn't available making it a wasted trip(we ditched Ali). Then we headed to Ngee Ann, the school on hills. Somehow, in my state of hypnotic trance, i was still able to follow them thanks to SX. He lent me a discman with Eminem's Encore it, so it kept me awake. If Nanyang was a maze, Ngee Ann is a labyrinth. No diff, just larger, more disorganised and did i mention it was built on hills. Being Singaporeans, we decided to get every freebie there is except those with long queues(Eric doesn't like waiting). That's about the end of that day. I decided to call WS in the night, but something tells me that she's avoiding me. Or is it just me. I thought that she would be one of those that a person can talk to even after that person confesses to her. Apparently, i was wrong. i believe this is what you call naive. Somehow when people ask me what do i wanna do in the future, i'll answer 'be a doctor' cos that's what they expect out of me. The truth is i see no future. Nothing to spur me on, no aim, no determination. This negativity in me must be purged, but i guess no one can save me. lest a miracle happens....When will i ever wear the real smile that disappeared 6 years ago?