well, another occasional post.
Like i mentioned earlier on, i never did like blogging, cos i really am lazy..... but well, since i had coffee at 3am and i can't sleep, might as well kill some time.
lots have happened in these long intervals between posts, so much that i dunno what to write about.
my studies are well, down the drain as i expected it to be, i should put in more effort into it though. oh well, i lost my will to do anything anyway.
as for maple, my choef bandit is doing extensively well, ever since the video i posted, ppl have been bugging me to do the next video. As for my dragon knight, its gotten to lvl 110.
Girls are still out of reach from me.... it seems i still have a long way to go to have any social interaction with gals. well, being timid n shy was an attribute, but now i'm different.
that was a summary of what is going on.
here's the long part...
during the past few months, it was events after events for JCG. it bought me great memories, new friendships forged, new enemies made and cute gal from NYP spotted. anyway, i'm not the type that goes for cutesy or beauty... u guys should know that by now. Anyways, i got turned down by another gal, XL, many of u might not heard of. but still, no matter how much i try to forget, no matter how much i told myself to move on, i just won't. it seems my human heart wants to cling on to nothing.
been mixing around with ppl more, but the weird thing is, the more i got closer, the more i want to withdraw. i'm so full of contradictions, i want ppl to know me, but my actions make me distant myself from them. i dunno what's going on in my mind.
I have been having really weird thoughts lately. like why i should be working harder, and how things are gonna be fine, and y not to cling on to the past. i think these thoughts probably made me more optimistic, yet i'm still pessimistic.
well, may the world shine upon me the rays of tomorrow to see what future beholds me.
to my friends, see u in the future, i'l always be there for u guys, even if u forgot me, u know there's always a huge bear-like man with the name of a whale to call to.
lots have happened in these long intervals between posts, so much that i dunno what to write about.
my studies are well, down the drain as i expected it to be, i should put in more effort into it though. oh well, i lost my will to do anything anyway.
as for maple, my choef bandit is doing extensively well, ever since the video i posted, ppl have been bugging me to do the next video. As for my dragon knight, its gotten to lvl 110.
Girls are still out of reach from me.... it seems i still have a long way to go to have any social interaction with gals. well, being timid n shy was an attribute, but now i'm different.
that was a summary of what is going on.
here's the long part...
during the past few months, it was events after events for JCG. it bought me great memories, new friendships forged, new enemies made and cute gal from NYP spotted. anyway, i'm not the type that goes for cutesy or beauty... u guys should know that by now. Anyways, i got turned down by another gal, XL, many of u might not heard of. but still, no matter how much i try to forget, no matter how much i told myself to move on, i just won't. it seems my human heart wants to cling on to nothing.
been mixing around with ppl more, but the weird thing is, the more i got closer, the more i want to withdraw. i'm so full of contradictions, i want ppl to know me, but my actions make me distant myself from them. i dunno what's going on in my mind.
I have been having really weird thoughts lately. like why i should be working harder, and how things are gonna be fine, and y not to cling on to the past. i think these thoughts probably made me more optimistic, yet i'm still pessimistic.
well, may the world shine upon me the rays of tomorrow to see what future beholds me.
to my friends, see u in the future, i'l always be there for u guys, even if u forgot me, u know there's always a huge bear-like man with the name of a whale to call to.
posted by Misunderst00d at 4:23 AM
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