My life for the past 3 years or so in a nutshell
Life sorta sucks still, sure i've got great company, great friends, great family but no great love.
See, ppl undermine the power of love, they think they can go on without it for long periods of time, even though what they truly want is just an ounce of it. Some become attention-seekers, leading people on with their many facades, and when u get too close, they bite ur head off. Some even put a facade to bite ur head off when they actually want u to be safe.
I'm, what, 20-odd now. Many ask if i'm gay or what, since i'm always hanging out with Ali, wayne yadda, but truth is i just dun wanna open up to girls anymore. Here's my past experiences of '08 - '09.
Sam: This specimen was interesting, had a subtle liking to cosplay and stuff, likes rock music and stuff. Apparently likes a buddy of mine, but that buddy was too stoic to reciprocate his feelings. Doesn't matter, since she ended up with a great guy. Di-Yang, ur the man!
Irritant: hey mysterious girl, i'm talking abt u. Yah, this alleged 16 yo girl gave me a prank call and i was retarded enough to counter harass her. We ended up talking to each other via text. Wow, like text means anything at all. She was fun, but whats love without the sensation of touch.
Moonblade: Protecting her name cos i still do love her. Today i did something stupid, announcing a hiatus because i didn't wanna be ard her anymore. y did i do it? i wanted to catalyst things, but the thing about catalysm is that it goes either really good, or really bad. She's got the sweetest pair of eyes, the allure of those jewels could bedazzle a bat. Her cute little nose that she thinks is big, her pinkish petite lips that i will never forget (no, i've never touch those). Her hair, always smelled of, idunno, shampoo? pheromones? Her skin was always so soft and creamy. Yah, ur prolly thinking damn, this guy is sick, i dun care. Cos she's always protecting what she holds dear to her; her friends, her loved ones, her besties. She craves for attention, sure, who doesn't. But she never lies. I am stupid. I'm dumb, i was too hard up, too desperate, too overwhelming. i was too me. Y did i have to have all things go my way? y must i have to try to twirk nature's course.
Damn, when she called herself a slut, i felt a heartache. I felt responsible for making her feel that way. if only i've come to understand her more, it wouldn't have been like this. If only i've let her have her space, n not smother her, it wouldn't have come to this.
To moonblade: U probably hate me now, i hate myself more than anyone does. I know i dun deserve an ounce of ur respect or forgiveness, and ur gonna avoid me till the end of time, but i wun get over you. Your my only one...
See, ppl undermine the power of love, they think they can go on without it for long periods of time, even though what they truly want is just an ounce of it. Some become attention-seekers, leading people on with their many facades, and when u get too close, they bite ur head off. Some even put a facade to bite ur head off when they actually want u to be safe.
I'm, what, 20-odd now. Many ask if i'm gay or what, since i'm always hanging out with Ali, wayne yadda, but truth is i just dun wanna open up to girls anymore. Here's my past experiences of '08 - '09.
Sam: This specimen was interesting, had a subtle liking to cosplay and stuff, likes rock music and stuff. Apparently likes a buddy of mine, but that buddy was too stoic to reciprocate his feelings. Doesn't matter, since she ended up with a great guy. Di-Yang, ur the man!
Irritant: hey mysterious girl, i'm talking abt u. Yah, this alleged 16 yo girl gave me a prank call and i was retarded enough to counter harass her. We ended up talking to each other via text. Wow, like text means anything at all. She was fun, but whats love without the sensation of touch.
Moonblade: Protecting her name cos i still do love her. Today i did something stupid, announcing a hiatus because i didn't wanna be ard her anymore. y did i do it? i wanted to catalyst things, but the thing about catalysm is that it goes either really good, or really bad. She's got the sweetest pair of eyes, the allure of those jewels could bedazzle a bat. Her cute little nose that she thinks is big, her pinkish petite lips that i will never forget (no, i've never touch those). Her hair, always smelled of, idunno, shampoo? pheromones? Her skin was always so soft and creamy. Yah, ur prolly thinking damn, this guy is sick, i dun care. Cos she's always protecting what she holds dear to her; her friends, her loved ones, her besties. She craves for attention, sure, who doesn't. But she never lies. I am stupid. I'm dumb, i was too hard up, too desperate, too overwhelming. i was too me. Y did i have to have all things go my way? y must i have to try to twirk nature's course.
Damn, when she called herself a slut, i felt a heartache. I felt responsible for making her feel that way. if only i've come to understand her more, it wouldn't have been like this. If only i've let her have her space, n not smother her, it wouldn't have come to this.
To moonblade: U probably hate me now, i hate myself more than anyone does. I know i dun deserve an ounce of ur respect or forgiveness, and ur gonna avoid me till the end of time, but i wun get over you. Your my only one...
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