A love lost

I dun feel misunderstood, in fact, i feel unaccepted. Y do i suffer so much? i Just dun get it. The memories keep coming back to me; of us going to clarke quay, sitting by the river looking at the reverse bungee and talking about our dreams. I keep recalling how she would always cry for me when i had to go back to camp. I could also remeber when she would drop by my house even before our date just to walk lucky with me. Y do these memories disappear from her mind so quickly? was i really that bad? Yet, she seek warmth from a guy she liked a long time ago. best part is, she won't pick up my calls or send me smses. I'm seeking closure, or a way back in. Apparently, the way she is now, she wun find happiness. It's not that i don't know her, i know her too well. I just don't get y can things turn sour within such a short time. All i asked for was a second chance, yet all i get was a cold shoulder, not from 1 but 2. How can she just jump into another person's warmth so quickly, like what we had was just mere fabrication. I need her, i still love her. But its not like she'll understand. I know taht if i really love her, i should be able to let her go, for her happiness, for her sake, but when ppl can offer warmth, i the one suffering more receive cold stares and ill treatment. i just wanted a second chance, cos i believe i can make things right.